the boyfriend had meningitis. i think he might have it again. he played a prank on me by drinking blueberry juice. it looked like his lips were purple. it took him a little while before confessing to this prank. then poor him. his own prank baclashed on him because then i started to think the whole being sick thing was a joke. he got caught in his own tangle of lies. so im like, are you sick or are you not??? im confused. i fail to see the humor. meningitis has no sore muscles symptoms, so most likely, he doesnt have meningitis. he also shaved a bit. he's amish looking. of course its cute. he's always the handsomest fella i ever laid eyes on. so im pretending we're amish. only for a few minutes though. im much too busy to let my imagination take me very far. my mind and my hands drift on to doing other things. wheres the magic in my life anymore? but it doesnt matter. its a different kind of magic. but how do i put words on it?

today we took sticks out for a walk. sticks overcame his fear of water! it was a joyful day for us. we threw his toy into the water. he jumped in after it and caught it then brought it back to us. super cute. my boyfriend says that through winter- we will have to take him for walks. he says its strange how our summer has been so miserable- but come fall and everything changes. like life. never staying the same. never the same. but day after day, everything is exactly the same. but we are different people. i wish i could meet myself next week. i might save someones life. like perhaps who knows, boyfriend with meningitis. i hope he doesnt die. let us pray.